Malnourished sincerity and integrity

Malnourished sincerity and integrity leads to a unhealthy character 

In today's world our body's are Malnourished and minds are certainly Malnourished. 

But malnourishment of sincerity and integrity is costing us dearly. 

Nourishment has dual impact , the first is on our generation and around us and the other is the upcoming generation.

You see the other day I went to a book event called "BOOKCHOR "

I wonder why the word CHOR is attached to such a devine piece of human creation called BOOK ? 

Nevertheless...

So the event provides opportunity to the book lovers to sell their old books and buy new ones from the lot available and displayed. 

We stood in the line where they were buying books from the readers , it was a long one contrary to the desk where the books were sold. 

My son was busy selecting books he wants to buy and I was waiting patiently observing the mind of books and genre people are selling and gauging the popular genre. No surprise the genre was fiction and enthusiasm around fiction was palpable. My turn came and the guy started scanning my books one by one. 

At the end he said your total amount comes to Rs 844 ...

How would you like this amount to be settled ? Gpay or adjustment to your purchase bill amount

I told him gpay the amount to my account 

He did it immediately. 

Then I located my son and checked with him if he is done. He was done with one box full of books which costs 1599 as per the event promo.

We went to counter,  the guy asked me for mobile number I entered the same in his mobile, he said you have sold some books and the amount accumulated is Rs 1564 and you need to pay only Rs 34

I was surprised and thought for a second how could this be...

I have been nourishing my integrity and sincerity since I have come to my senses and my character was healthy so it immediately corrected the guy saying there is some mistake. I told the guy that I have already collected payment for the books I sold 

There is some mistake here and the guy in split seconds without hesitation and worry asked me to pay the whole amount 

My son was watching all this and a generation was getting impressed with the unfolding event.

Offcourse he said that we could have got the books free but you corrected him a d paid the full amount . I held the diluting integrity and nourished his integrity with the right way to deal with it . He understood it and seeds of sincerity and integrity were nourished. 

Upon reaching home I revisited the incident and realised another story cooking behind the incident of errors.

There is a dilution of integrity at the Selling and buying counter .

The guy did manipulate the amount of money to be paid to me for my books sold.

It was as per system Rs 1564 but he only returned me Rs 844

And the guy at the buying counter even after knowing that I received Rs 844 and in system it's showing as Rs 1564 didn't intervene and took full amount from me for the books purchased. 

Clearly the sincerity and integrity is malnourished. We see so many such instances in society and turn blind eye to it.

And at times even term it as street smartness .

I am sorry from when did cheating others become street smartness 

How can even we side with such behaviors?

Consider oursleves on the receiving end of such street smartness then you would know how delusional and sick drawing kick from such behavior of smartness feels.

We must nourish our own sincerity and integrity at all times and stand for our own even if you can't advise or coerce others .

It's a essential ingredient of our humanity and if they continue to be malnourished then the next step of malnourishment is sickness and dissapearance into the universe. 

Uniqueness our only personality ...

We are made up of same elements but yet our individual structure is unique and further since our birth this uniqueness evolves infinitely at every moment 

We don't even have a gross idea of our uniqueness though from time to time life throws at us innumerable evidences via experiences and events that we are unique and our uniqueness is further branching out into infiniteness every moment. 

Our mind does get gobbled up in this maze and creates short cuts to save itself and keep us away from deluding into the vastness of chaos . It identifies similarities and patterns in every experience to give stability to our life .

These similarities and patterns  are assumed and momentary illusions of our prejudices . Our mind keeps us engaged into these patterns by tying us tightly to it and creates constant resistance every occassion we try to break the patterns and enter into the uncertain infintieness of life.

But life keeps bashing us regularly with its uncertain ever evolving patternlessness and manages to delude us inspite of our minds protection mechanisms .

We do know deeply inside our heart or have some sense that everybody around us is unique and different than us but we still stick to assumed similarities and try to find comfort and peace in it . 

We keep struggling to stick to such false comforts but we don't have choice other than struggling because the other side of this false comfort is complete delusion and abyss of infinite possibilities of uniqueness. 

And we keep fighting, challenging , contradicting .with each other's and keep hopelessly expecting similarity in others and our search for finding oursleves in others never ends .

The quest for finding similarities is even more bewildering than encountering infiniteness but yet we relentlessly every moment keep seeking it and it's the major source of our pain and suffering. 

You might expect after reaching here in the blog  that i am trying to offer you  any solution to deal.with it .

But you might get disappointed that there is no solution other than accepting and constantly aligning but even if I  offer any solution that would be seemingly acceptable, it would still be  generalisation of the issue.

So however hopeless it sounds it is what it is...

Acknowledging the issue dilutes uneasiness and unpleasantness associated with it .

Let me tell you that It takes courage to  even just  conduct our lives till end of this journey from nowhere to nowhere and always assuming that we are reaching somewhere from somewhere..